Impending ominous...

I braced for the pain, my body tensed, awaiting the cold steel to pierce through. Then it hit me, boring through my skin into my vein, unwavering till the first flow of blood is seen. millimeter by millimeter, its going deeper and deeper. ok... i think i've been reading too much in camp. But seriously having a needle in ur body totally sux! feeling it moving around inside sux even more. however, the worst is far from over. after my buddy remove the cathete, the blood i saw was black. i conclude i am not human.

thinking that the worst was over, i picked myself up and wash away the blood from my arm. upon closer inspection, i realised that my left arm has broken out in rash. my temperature was plummeting and i was losing consciousness rapidly. i use every ounce of strength to draw my breath, each one becoming harder and harder. i turned as pale as paper, friends said i was f*#%king white. i struggle to stay awake wondering if whiting out would bring me much needed relief. i could hear voices, those of my instructors....

Alright, wasn't that exciting? and its true ok, exactly what happened to me on friday IV session. i am not exaggerating, i went into compensatory shock. i have no idea how or why. till now i am still having headache and i am damn tired. i think there may be something wrong with me.

i went to visit my grandma just now. she is not doing too well either.. doctor is giving her a week or two more. its really sad no, very very very sad to know that time is running out. i have no idea what to say or type, i will just keep faith and pray.....

On Stereotyping...

Its ironic that with the amount of education we received, people still cannot lose the habit of stereotyping. Be it to strangers we see on the streets or those who are closer to our hearts, its happening all around us. Classic examples are, fat people cannot swim, people who wear glasses cannot shoot well, etc... People with these myopic views should be the ones who go for lasic, or maybe their eye balls should be gouge out. i vote for the latter. its a sad society we're living in or at least i feel that way. A society based on physical appearance, materialism, where the rich and the "good looking" have the advantage. its utterly impossible to change stereotypes so why not lets do something to proved to the world how wrong they are.

Met up with li heng and kin aun yesterday to watch fantastic 4. it was a so so movie only. definitely not worth your $9.50. however if it was because of jessica alba or the witty charmed of the human torch, then thats a different story. the movie has no classic "super hero stuffs" if u know what i'm talking about, its more of a special effects cum high flying stuns movie. A very shallow story line that severely insults our intelligence. A consolation was that the characteristic of the fantastic 4 were well played by the actors. did i mention how amazingly hot jessica alba was in that body hugging suit. its a 10 on the sizzle scale! Anyway after the movie, we saw a girl on the floor in TM, i supposed she fainted or something, thank goodness there were people attending to her already.

Time is money...

I've developed a pretty expensive habit lately. I'm taking taxi everywhere I go! I guess this pricey behavior stem from the fact that time is worth much more than money. I presume this is what they call "buying time", literally... Furthermore since I'm also paying adult rate for bus rides, I might as well add in a few more dollars and get to my destination in a much much faster time.

I finally met up with Lydia today after so so long at her work place. it feels weird when she served me... This is one great birthday present from her! Chicken Bolognese spaghetti, peach smoothie and finally chocolate chip waffle with a scoop of ice cream! whats the best of it all? i didnt have to pay at all. it was like her restaurant!

waaa cannot tahan already.... falling asleep.... i'm so full..... sleep.... zzzz................
thanks Lydia......

Happy Birthday Aaron...

There was no cake, no mom, no dad, no significant other to share this day with me. For the first time in my life, i am celebrating my birthday away from home, well in Nee Soon camp to be precise. Guess you people must be surprised how the heck am i able to blog in camp. well i'm in the MO right now reporting sick for a knee injury, so i'm making use of the long waiting time to pen a few words for my beloved friends who took the few seconds yesterday and today to sms me a birthday wish.

As i sat in bed yesterday engrossed in Dan Brown's "Angels and Demons", i thought to myself who would sms me a birthday wish. i know lights had to be out by 2230 so i decided to turn in early, way before any of the sms arrive. i left my phone on but kept it in my drawer. I decided to check when i wake up the next morning. Hey thats the most fun idea i could think of to make my birthday some what less mundane, like a little kid eager to open his presents on Christmas morning.

Damn i have only 10min left on the comp so i better make it quick before some high ranking humans start glaring at me ready to pluck my hair out one by one. Ok so here goes, to all those who sms me yesterday and today, especially to Yoke Leng, Yipin and benjy, thank you all so much for those sms. it really lifted my spirits up, especially now that i am in camp, awaiting the time when my hair would be shaved off again. it was a pleasant surprised for me that Yipin remembered my birthday, thanks so much! Thank you Yoke leng for all ur sms and calls to me!

i feel like i am sitting in front of a firing squard armed with their tomatoes and cucumbers ready to fire them at me for such a cheezy speech but nevertheless, thank you people for remembering this day where i poped out as lydia would put it.

Yawnz...

I have no idea what my title means, but thats what i'm doing non stop now. So for the sake of a title and without killing too much of my brain cells, there you go. Am i beginning to see a direction, a pathway to where i am suppose to go? i haven't the slightest clue but what i know is that i am doing well training to be a medic. i had my I.V(intra venous) last thursday and boy was it a nerve wercking experience, get it? Nerve wrecking? hahaha... oh never mind.... My sergeant asked if anyone afraid of needles, no one will be coz who will be afraid of a thin metal stick? but who is afraid of the thin metal stick impaling into your arm, now thats a different story. My buddy should really thank me coz i did it once i did it good, i shot once and i scored. i was the first in the platoon to succeed as well. Applause please.... But my angels weren't smiling on me that day, when it was my buddy's turn to go in, he went in alright, he went straight through my vein... it was bloody pain, my forearm swelled up because of hematoma. Lucky the sergeant was merciful, he allow my buddy to pass so that he doesn't have to poke me again! i thought my worries were over and i could not be more wrong. i had to volunteer my arm for one of my friends to experiment on caused he failed 3 times on his buddy already. you could imagine the trepidation i had, like what is the chance of him succeeding if he failed 3 times already! So i prayed and i prayed and i prayed, and by the grace of God, my left arm was spared of any injuries.

The bombshell was dropped on us the same night, our conscription into MRF(Medical Response Force) was confirmed. Like angels banished to the fires of hell. the first thing the big devil said to us was, "you all know why u are here? no? u are here because u are F%*# UP!" i'm staying in the 2nd storey now, soon we will have to move up to the 4th where the MRF dwells. Sigh the paradox of life, hell is upwards over here and yea we were literally F%*#ed Up! get it? hahaha... oh never mind...

Went to watch War of the Worlds yesterday with ka and lh. my advice, don't go watch it. its totally not worth your money. Heck its not even worth your time unless u are obsessed over Tom Cruise. Just go get a pirated VCD or download it.